OUT OF STEP

OUT OF STEP 

A sleepless night, the threat of rain,

Listening to music to pass the hours,

A busy mind, uncertainty and fear,

Hearing now the autumn showers.

A special service at dawn with memories,

Of days long gone when pain was real

Waiting and thinking and longing

For mornings faint glow to steal.

I am out of step with my world today

And tears stream down my face,

Confused and anxious are my thoughts

My heart begins to race.

Dressed and ready to face my day

With coffee at my hand

Support from one who cares for me

And leads me by the hand.

I am told to recall how well I am

And that I've been given a second chance,

I realize that I must look forward

With ne'er a backward glance.

I wake each day with a thankful heart

And whatever will be will be,

These wobbly days are confusing,.

I lose sight of the real me.

I know I must be positive - "it is what it is"

And I must patiently wait,

I'm not good at waiting 

And I am never late.

It is out of my hands and I must see

The joy in every day 

Seize with both hands the life that is mine

And not let things get in the way.

Another strong coffee and a stern reproach

From the core of my very being,

And I am back in step with my life again,

And clearer is my seeing.

The tears I have shed this morning

Have been there for a long while

It's good that they are out at last

And I can face my world with a smile.

It's true that to see the rainbow 

We must surely have the rain,

And that for flowers to grow

The showers must come again.

I am blessed in my life to have support

And encouragement from those who care,

To help me back on track,  face my life

And to encourage me to dare.

© Linda J. Vaughan

April 25th 2013